i've also changed my contact information!
so here's where you can find me now. (:
twitter: @aasdfghjklove
facebook: facebook
tumblr: petrichor
hotmail: yona.chow@hotmail.com
instagram: aasdfghjklove
kik: aasdfghjklove
so do feel free to talk to me on any of the listed places! i'm willing to talk and listen, or even a simple hello would be fantastic. (:
much love,
yona
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
because it's just not me.
you know that feeling you get when you just don't feel like you're the same person you were before? or you're just not... you? yeah... it's been like that for me lately.
before, i used to be a bubbly person, who was always smiling, always laughing, and always just... happy. but as of late, i've just been feeling upset, depressed, and crappy. and before you say it, it's definitely NOT hormones!! hormones don't last for months. i know it's kind of stupid to say, but ever since things started to go bad with danny, things just haven't been bright.
yes, we are definitely done-zo, but there's just a nagging feeling in the back of my mind that keeps encouraging me that there might be a chance we'd get back together, however, it isn't in reality. in reality, he apologized for hurting me, but if you have ever felt love, you'll understand when i say you're willing to put up with a lot just to be with someone who makes you feel happy and sunshine-y.
i've had bad times, i'll admit. and these bad times, i just don't know what i can do to stop them. the feelings are so negative sometimes, i really just don't know how i can move, let alone just... get over it strong. and yes, it is what you're thinking. it's gotten terrible, and i don't have the strength to talk to someone because i'm denying i'm a different person. i loved who i was before. i loved being a caring person, and now i just feel... not caring anymore. there are nights where i just can't sleep because all these negative thoughts come and haunt me, and keep me up.
i don't really know what else to say other than i really do miss and love danny. and if you are someone who really cares and loves someone, let them now any chance you get. yes, i know i deserve better, but i don't want better. i was perfectly happy with where i was, and i just want him back, more than anything else.
is it stupid of me to hate the fact that he might be with someone much better than who i am now? or that i'm afraid he'll meet the girl i went to school with, but moved to australia? it's crazy, but no one deserves him more than i do. he made me feel like i meant something, and my negative thoughts weren't as often.
sigh.
on another note, sorry i've been MIA. i've just been caught up in school and work. hopefully i'll have the motivation to write a little more. but until then, you're all wonderful, and i'll talk to you later.
xo, yona.
before, i used to be a bubbly person, who was always smiling, always laughing, and always just... happy. but as of late, i've just been feeling upset, depressed, and crappy. and before you say it, it's definitely NOT hormones!! hormones don't last for months. i know it's kind of stupid to say, but ever since things started to go bad with danny, things just haven't been bright.
yes, we are definitely done-zo, but there's just a nagging feeling in the back of my mind that keeps encouraging me that there might be a chance we'd get back together, however, it isn't in reality. in reality, he apologized for hurting me, but if you have ever felt love, you'll understand when i say you're willing to put up with a lot just to be with someone who makes you feel happy and sunshine-y.
i've had bad times, i'll admit. and these bad times, i just don't know what i can do to stop them. the feelings are so negative sometimes, i really just don't know how i can move, let alone just... get over it strong. and yes, it is what you're thinking. it's gotten terrible, and i don't have the strength to talk to someone because i'm denying i'm a different person. i loved who i was before. i loved being a caring person, and now i just feel... not caring anymore. there are nights where i just can't sleep because all these negative thoughts come and haunt me, and keep me up.
i don't really know what else to say other than i really do miss and love danny. and if you are someone who really cares and loves someone, let them now any chance you get. yes, i know i deserve better, but i don't want better. i was perfectly happy with where i was, and i just want him back, more than anything else.
is it stupid of me to hate the fact that he might be with someone much better than who i am now? or that i'm afraid he'll meet the girl i went to school with, but moved to australia? it's crazy, but no one deserves him more than i do. he made me feel like i meant something, and my negative thoughts weren't as often.
sigh.
on another note, sorry i've been MIA. i've just been caught up in school and work. hopefully i'll have the motivation to write a little more. but until then, you're all wonderful, and i'll talk to you later.
xo, yona.
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