as of late, everything seems to have taken a 180 turn. everything sucks, everything isn't right, everything is stupid, and everything is ridiculous.
i seem to have lost myself completely from when i last posted and now, and honestly, it's frightening. why? well, because i was never actually content with myself in the first place. i put on faces just so people don't worry about me, and i can give off the impression i want them to have of me.
ridiculous and stupid, right? yup. i know.
at work, i'm bubbly, sunny, happy, and all smiles all the time. at home, i'm angry, moody, tired, annoyed, and quiet. at school, i'm sweet, happy, smiles, and interested. but when i'm by myself, i'm tired, sore, sad, confused, drained, and a bunch of other moods i don't feel like sharing.
i don't know. i just wish things would fall into place for me for once because it's hard and tiring to put on an act all the time. especially if it's to be well liked.
but yeah.
you're all still wonderful, and i'm sorry i suck at this. i'll talk to you all later.
xo, yona
